Those of you who have read my blog before will know that I tend to be open and honest, this blog has become a big part of my therapy. Unfortunately since I broke up my relationship, I find it difficult to write. No, being honest I am afraid to write what I am feeling. You see I have a daughter and I worry that if I was to actually write how I feel sometimes, I would be prevented from seeing her. So I bottle it up, I do have someone I can open up to but often I hold back because she has problems of her own. So I find myself with a dilemma on my hands, do I shut up shop?
Now you are all wondering what kind of ego maniac feels he has put all his deepest, darkest fears online? Well yes, I can just write it all down for myself nice and private but I also know how important it is to share. The thing about mental illness is there are volumes of textbooks written about by experts, but very little from the real experts. I made a commitment to myself to speak out, now I am at an impasse. One part of me wants to just shut my mouth, the site and just deal with it. The other part wants me to continue.
So there you go, probably my shortest post ever (phew I hear you say). So much I want to say but as you can see I am hampered. So if this is to be goodbye for now, I would like to thank all of you who have read my ramblings. I would also like to thank all of you who have left such lovely feedback, you are all amazing. Finally to the person who has helped me so much, a massive thank you. Even without this blog, I hope we remain friends for a long time to come.