I think I have had five hours sleep,
But hey, it’s a new day, time to start it all over again.
Get up, step on scales, tell scales to go fcuk themselves, go pee, wash hands, go grab phone, man bag and e cig, head downstairs. Glass of water, check, grind the coffee beans, check, boil the kettle, check. Same start to every day.
Probably no different to any other person on the planet, I guess a lot of people have routines that they go through. Mine is likely no different to any other knuckle dragging male who lives on his own, (it’s okay I am clothed). Anyway, beans ready…………….
Okay next up the ‘am I still alive checks’, first blood pressure….. 117/78 pulse 62, little low but then I am beyond a ‘resting’ BP lol. Next up smarties, SSRIs, anti-seizure meds and vits and bits yummy. Next first blood sugar test, 4.8mmol not bad for first thing and finally nasal spray, god, I feel like Charlie Sheen………
Okay next we plug all this into various apps on my phone, Actual time slept 5 hours 11 minutes, weight 12 st 7.1 lbs (+5.0lbs), then we tick off all these things as done….. and then check the list of things to do;
zero inbox – Overdue – (my never ending task to get on top of my emails)
Track my budget – Overdue – (that should be fun)
Eat some fruit – Overdue – (coffee beans are from plants)
Vacuum – Overdue – (yay I get to fight with the hoover)
Gardening – Overdue – (must add reminder to get dad to bring his mower over)
Yoga – Overdue – (definitely, not doing with my daughter in house #humiliation)
Write blog post – Overdue – ( finally, something being achieved)
OU Study – Overdue – (okay, assignment due in five days #panicstations)
CBH Study – Overdue – (above takes priority)
Tidy the house – Overdue – (but I’m always tidying the bloody place)
Sort laundry – Overdue – (bedroom chair should class as wardrobe)
Ironing – Overdue – (yay, get to fight with hoover and iron)
and these are just the things that are overdue….. Okay, fight the temptation to have another coffee, and move on to social media……
Facebook, open, scroll, close, wipe hands
Twitter (my medium of choice ( @davesoapbox if your interested)) This may take a while
Check through, re-tweet, those that know me will know that I use twitter a lot so it takes a while. I really must set up lists, my timeline always seems to end up full of people pulling bugs from their skin or T&A pictures, (I should vet who I add more closely)…….. anyway skip forward a bit and know that both accounts are checked ( @MHPathway )
And I could go on and on, my day defined, ruled by apps on my phone to constantly remind me to do the things that most people just do. Today, like the past few, I have been riding the wave of positive mindset. Adjustment to medication times seems to have worked, no recent (past week) manic moments, no depressive moments, in the zone for now. However I am constantly walking the tightrope, always aware that the slightest thing and I could fall one way or the other.
Every morning proving to myself that I am physically healthy, medication taken and all information recorded. Spending my days making sure that I stay on track, watching myself all the time, judging each emotional reaction to each situation, was that a negative thought?, was I right to feel that way?, am I slipping?, stressing?, what if I have another seizure?,Spot the trends, find the balance and I will do exactly the same again tomorrow…….